Blood, Sweat, Tears, and Miracles

I cannot express the gratitude that I feel in my heart at this exact moment. It is overwhelming and bursting from every part of me. This past year has been met with some fierce trials and some heartache. Now come the rewards. I do not know what lies ahead but I pray that I will never forget how I feel at this moment. Miracles Happen! There is so much that I want to share but only so much that I can share. Last Feb. when i was in the hospital was a turning point in my life. I was able to do a lot of soul searching as I expressed in posts during that time. I figured out things in my life and have been working on those things ever since. Some of you know that after that hospital stay I began an extreme exercise program called P90X. For any of you that know this program, no I am not going to be ripped in 90 days. I found DVDs from it that I enjoy and have done them on a weekly routinely basis. I have gained muscle that I never knew existed. When I went in the hospital last August and was there for a month I nearly lost all that I had worked for. I began to question all that I had been told thinking it was all in my head. The Lord then reminded me of His love and gentle mercies and I began to gain the motivation that I once had. I continued with this program even when I had no motivation. After about 2 months of being out of the hospital the motivation and muscles began to come back. I was feeling strong again. I felt good for about a month and then boom I was back in the hospital. I cant tell you the struggles that I went through emotionally. Thankfully they only last about a day and then I get my head on straight again mostly due to an amazing husband that listens and then tells me how it is. Thank you Ben you will never know the deep impact you have on my very soul. In a blessing that I had before I came in the hospital I was told that my body was preparing for change. I had no idea what this meant but began to be excited about what it could mean. I did my lung tests yesterday and after one week of being in the hospital my tests are better than when I left the hospital after one month last time. My overall lung capacity is higher than it has been in years. It is truly amazing. As I am typing this I just finished doing my P90X cardio video. I did the first half of the workout with no oxygen at all. For those that dont know I have needed oxygen to exercise nearly everyday of my dear sweet daughters life. Then after doing half of the video my oxygen started to drop. I then only required 1/2 of a litre. That is literally nothing. I know that for most of you this may not seem incredible but to me this is truly the miracle that I have been working and waiting for. I know that the Lord answers prayers and I know that He keeps his promises as we keep ours. I cant tell you how many times I have done this exercise with tears streaming down my face because of the difficulty and strain. Today I had tears streaming down my face due to the gratitude that I have for such a loving Heavenly Father that knows me personally and helps me every step of the way.