Emotions

This last week has been filled with emotions! First of all my best friend Karole moved to Arizona. I knew it would be hard but I really didnt know it would be this hard. I miss her and her family so much. They moved next door to us nearly 2 years ago and our friendship has gone beyond that. They are family. We are all going to miss them so much. Cambree was pretending today that Braxton and Issac were here playing with her. It nearly broke my heart. She is going to miss her two buddies/brothers. I can't tell you how many times I have just broke down crying because of it. I couldnt even talk about it after I told them goodbye. It is really going to be difficult for us. Now on to the good times, well we went and spent Saturday night with our good friends Jake and Erin. Jake is seriously the funniest kid you will ever meet. We always have a stomachache after hanging out with both Ben and Jake together. Rolling on the floor laughing is usually what happens. Then on Sunday we went and had dinner with Bens uncle Mark that we just met at his dad's funeral. That was really interesting. I am so glad that we got to go. They seriously are some of the nicest people I know and it was all so comfortable which really amazed me. Its funny that every time we have ever been with anyone from that side of the family it has never been awkward. I think that Ben enjoyed it. I am always the one to ask the most questions but wasnt sure if it was my place here or not so next time I am totally going to get the scoop on everything. There is still so much in the air that I think we should find out. I am way too curious. Then we got home and just hung out on Monday and then on Tuesday I got a call from my mom that my uncle was dying. It is my dad (Jims) sister's husband and we found out in December that he had cancer in his stomach. He did chemo for a bit but it didnt seem to be helping so he decided to stop. They were able to take a wonderful trip to Hawaii with all of his kids and had the best time of their lives. After they got home is when he really started to go down hill. We went and saw him about a month ago and I was shocked at how much weight he had lost. I was pretty sure it wouldnt be too much longer. I feel so sad for my aunt and her loss. They have only been married for 7 years and I know it is truly the happiest she has ever been. He was an amazing man and he will be missed. It all just gives me a greater perspective of how fragile life is. We have had a death every 2 years since Ben and I have been married and all around this time of year. It is a little eerie. I have so many emotions right now. Feeling a complete hole knowing I can't just run over to Karoles or have her boys come and play with Cambree, sheer excitement for getting to know Bens Kizerian family better, and pure sadness for my aunt and the loss we have had in our family. Life is really a roller coaster sometimes.

Oh so many things!

Wow! I know it has been a while and so many things have been going on. Mothers Day, Cambree's dance recital, and her graduation from preschool. So first off, Mothers day was amazing. It is really the first mothers day that I have actually been home. The first two were spent in the hospital and the third we were driving home from California. So first off I woke up to Ben making me Crepes for breakfast, he is seriously the best crepe maker I know. Then Cambree gave me a beautiful picture of her and I, yes the one where she wanted to sit with Karole and not her mom. I will scan it when I get my scanner set up. Then Ben and Cambree gave me some awesome Nike Shocks, for exercise and a new journal. I was very excited. It is so amazing to me still that I am a mother and in charge of this little being that Heavenly Father sent us. It can sometimes be a daunting task, but I pray that we can do a good job. Thank you Ben and Cambree for a wonderful mothers day!

We also had Cambrees dance recital and it was so cute! she looked adorable, I can't believe how big she is gettting. Then after her dance her daddy got to go give her a flower and take her off the stage. It was adorable. I was so mad becuase Ben handed the camera over to me and I totally didnt know how to zoom out so I didnt get it on there. But here are some really cute pics.





Then it was on to Preschool graduation. She still has one year left, but it was fun to go and hear all that they have learned. She has grown so much this year, I am sad that preschool is over, it was so fun for her to get together with her friends. She is quite the social butterfly, I don't think she had a chance considering who her parents are.

Cambree and Adam, they have so much fun together

The proud parents

Grandma Kathy

Grandma and Grandpa Cox

Cambree with her two buds, we are going to miss them so much!