Pondering

Im just sitting here being lazy and pondering life. Ive been thinking a lot about my health lately and am so grateful for the amazing summer that I was able to have. I felt great the whole summer, better than usual. While I was thinking about that I remember blessing that Ben gave me about 3 years ago and I remember in it it told me that I would be able to do things I thought I would never be able to do. I remember both Ben and I were bawling and at the time we thought it meant I would be able to have a baby, which Im sure it did, just not the way we expected. As I look back over the past 3 years and all the enjoyable fun things we have done and how healthy I have felt this summer in particular I am amazed again at the power of the priesthood and the fulfillment of promises given. The other day my brother sent me a link to a blog about a guy with CF. It is actually a blog I read pretty frequently but I hadnt read this specific post he was referring too. The blog is www.runsickboyrun.blogspot.com. Anyway, it was about a 29 yr old CF woman who through running and exercise increased her PFTs from 49% to 106%. This is astonishing to say the least. I was very happy for this girl. But then I started thinking about me and all the effort I put into P90X and I couldnt help but start to get down and think, "I wish that would have happened to me." Then as I went to bed and woke up with a clearer head I remebered that did happen to me. At my lowest point of pregnancy although I could not do the breathing test because I was so sick, we figure my lung tests got down into the high teens, around 18% yes that is not a typo. It was crazy. I was on a ventilator twice and fortunately able to come off. Now when my PFTs are at there best they are around 48% that my friends is amazing and it was mostly due to my dedication in exercise. I walked 6 days a week for 30 min and did 4 breathing treatments a day after I had Cambree because I knew it was my choice whether I lived or died. That is a story for another day. But instead of getting down on myself all I needed was to remember what I have come from and how blessed I am to be able to enjoy life to the fullest!