What I've Learned

Ive learned: -What it feels like to want something so badly and pray that somehow it will all come to be. -Heartache in feeling like I had another baby waiting for me, trying everything to get myself ready to be able to have it. -Devastation in realizing that my body would not be physically capable of carrying a child. -Humbleness in knowing that someone loves me enough and trusts our Heavenly Father enough to have a baby for me. -Each child is so important to our Heavenly Father that he will do whatever it takes to bring them to this earth. -Heavenly Father is so aware of each of us and our personal needs. If we listen intently and try to do what is asked of us, He will prepare a way for His will to be done. -Heavenly Father does not ask something of us that we cannot achieve. -Heavenly Father works in mysterious ways, but He works. -The Lord can give us peace in moments of chaos and uncertainty to let us know that all is well. -The Lord speaks to each one of us through the whisperings of the spirit. We just have to figure out how he speaks to us. It is different for everyone. -That through those whisperings I have been lead through this journey for years. -The scriptures will answer questions that we are having when we least expect it. -The Lord will involve others in my answers without any of them knowing that they were doing just that. I am so grateful that so many are worthy to have the spirit lead them. -We never know when we will be an answer to someones prayer. -I will never be worthy enough for all that I have been blessed with which makes the love that our Heavenly Father has for me and each one of us that much greater. -As long as we are doing our best and trying to submit to His will He will bless us beyond anything we can imagine. -that a babies heart is visible through an ultrasound at 4 weeks after being transferred. I am in awe at the beauty of that pumping on a screen. -what it feels like to be happy beyond belief, loved without any reservations, and humbled to the point of tears. -that even though we have been told something from our Heavenly Father it doesn't mean that it will happen when or how we think it will. I was told in Feb. of 08' that I was going to have another baby and here we are in May 10' with one on the way through my sis in law. -that as long as we let Heavenly Father be in charge and continue in Faith that all good things will come to pass. I'm not saying that we will always get what we want, but we will always get what we need. I've also learned that people surprise me. I have been blown away by the love and kindness shown us through this experience and could not have expected it to go as well as it has. My testimony has strengthened so much over the past two years and I am so grateful for these experiences that I have had and will be able to share with my children in hopes that it will help them to know and love the Lord as Ben and I do. I will never be able to give enough gratitude to my beautiful sister in law Abby or to my Heavenly Father, but I will live my life trying.