Emotions

This last week has been filled with emotions! First of all my best friend Karole moved to Arizona. I knew it would be hard but I really didnt know it would be this hard. I miss her and her family so much. They moved next door to us nearly 2 years ago and our friendship has gone beyond that. They are family. We are all going to miss them so much. Cambree was pretending today that Braxton and Issac were here playing with her. It nearly broke my heart. She is going to miss her two buddies/brothers. I can't tell you how many times I have just broke down crying because of it. I couldnt even talk about it after I told them goodbye. It is really going to be difficult for us. Now on to the good times, well we went and spent Saturday night with our good friends Jake and Erin. Jake is seriously the funniest kid you will ever meet. We always have a stomachache after hanging out with both Ben and Jake together. Rolling on the floor laughing is usually what happens. Then on Sunday we went and had dinner with Bens uncle Mark that we just met at his dad's funeral. That was really interesting. I am so glad that we got to go. They seriously are some of the nicest people I know and it was all so comfortable which really amazed me. Its funny that every time we have ever been with anyone from that side of the family it has never been awkward. I think that Ben enjoyed it. I am always the one to ask the most questions but wasnt sure if it was my place here or not so next time I am totally going to get the scoop on everything. There is still so much in the air that I think we should find out. I am way too curious. Then we got home and just hung out on Monday and then on Tuesday I got a call from my mom that my uncle was dying. It is my dad (Jims) sister's husband and we found out in December that he had cancer in his stomach. He did chemo for a bit but it didnt seem to be helping so he decided to stop. They were able to take a wonderful trip to Hawaii with all of his kids and had the best time of their lives. After they got home is when he really started to go down hill. We went and saw him about a month ago and I was shocked at how much weight he had lost. I was pretty sure it wouldnt be too much longer. I feel so sad for my aunt and her loss. They have only been married for 7 years and I know it is truly the happiest she has ever been. He was an amazing man and he will be missed. It all just gives me a greater perspective of how fragile life is. We have had a death every 2 years since Ben and I have been married and all around this time of year. It is a little eerie. I have so many emotions right now. Feeling a complete hole knowing I can't just run over to Karoles or have her boys come and play with Cambree, sheer excitement for getting to know Bens Kizerian family better, and pure sadness for my aunt and the loss we have had in our family. Life is really a roller coaster sometimes.